Roller Coaster Ride of Emotions
man showing different kinds of emotions

As an actor, my job is to make you feel the emotions of my character.  I need you to feel the pain, anger, joy, and every emotion that you cannot explain. It requires many hours of practice and dedication to master this art, the skill that will make everyone cry, laugh, and captivated. I’ll take you to my world. But please be advised that it would be hard to get out. I told you in my “Meet the Actor Page” that I cannot tell the difference anymore. I’m in limbo where everywhere is all about acting. You just can get lost and at the same time, discover the roads and corners you’ve never been before. My words cannot contemplate what I want you know, that is why I’m an actor for a reason.

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The Sadness

a man who is stressed out and sad

According to, sadness is more than showing your lonely face. Your eyes has to speak the depths of the sadness that’s lingering in your soul. A depth that’s too deep, no one can dig. Only then, you can be sad. Sadness is composed of emptiness and dissatisfaction, humans tend to be clueless where they came from. The tend to find the solution but can’t find one. The solutions finds them. A man can do is to only wait for it to come and continue to move on with lonely life. This is sadness.

“I’ve cried, and you’d think I’d be better for it, but the sadness just sleeps, and it stays in my spine the rest of my life.” – Conor Oberst

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The Joy

A happy girl

This the part where you stretch your mouth, relax the muscle of your face and let it brighten. Let your heart explode with the positivity it offers. Imagine yourself to be in place you wanted to dance so badly, just let go. Be free to express the joy inside you. Hug someone, tell them how important they are. The best way to express happiness is when you an make someone happy. See the glow on their faces and observe how their moods change. Then once you’re home, look in the mirror.

 “With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.” –  Max Ehrmann

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The Anger

Man who is madAnger is my favorite emotion in a play because it helps me release my self from withholding the things I want to say. This is the time when I grind my teeth and close my fist as if I’m going to punch someone in the face.  There will more emotions that you would come across in acting. The best tip I can give you is to remember the moments you can associate to the emotion you want to show. If you want to cry, remember the most painful event in your life.

“I don’t usually lose my temper, but if I get angry, it’s true – I’m scary.” – Eva Mendes


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My Struggles As An Actor
girls laying on the road with her face on the floor

The Struggle For Greatness

The struggle for greatness doesn’t stop when you already become an actor. You want to please your audience to receive their ground-breaking applause. We tend to take our roles too far to reach this level of acting. Everything from the story becomes real and your reality becomes the story. That’s the reason I mentioned on this blog that there is a danger of being lost. You get lost and you don’t know when you can ever find your way back.

Tendency To Take The Role Too Far

I am passionate with I do. This is what I do best. I have the tendency to take my role too far by alienating my self from the crowd. I don’t care what other people think as long as I know I delivered my role well. The problem with this tendency is you lost the precious relationships in your life. I lost the track of time because of acting. I now look at my empty pad with no one to talk to. I have sacrificed the value of divine relationships for the sake of acting, I’m now asking my self if it worth the sacrifice. I’m telling you now, it’s not worth it. Learn from my mistakes to save your self from the emptiness and pain of what it caused me.

Having Difficulty Of Finding Other Source Of Happiness

Acting has been part of my life. It’s tattooed in my heart. There is no way you can separate me from acting. But the question is… what will happen to me if the theater turn its back on me? It’s hard to move on. It’s hard to find other source of happiness. You will miss the crowd, you will miss those stressful days of the play and you will miss everything about it. So my advice to you is to find other hobby to get you distracted. Don’t make it your only world. Roles can come and go but you will always have to make peace with your self.

You Tend To Have Multiple Personalities

Well this one doesn’t need explanation. As you know, actors take on different roles. Each roles creates their part on us. They became so sticky and would be impossible to remove. When I took the role of Sweeney Todd, I noticed that I was becoming more and more of him. Sweeney Todd is a man with so many unfinished business, he is full of revenge, anger, and longingness. I want to make it clear that I didn’t kill anyone. But the character of Sweeney has somehow creeped into veins. I adapted his fashion statement and the worst his resentment to the world. Don’t worry, my shrink is taking care of this issue for me.



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